Warning personal complaining (I would do read more but idk how and mostly idc)
I hate it here so much I have no clue what the fuck I’m doing in central Ohio. I have no friends. Everyone’s from fucking ohio and out of 40000+ kids I swear it’s pathetic I have no friends. this school is 100% parties but like at one point I was chill with parties but now whenever I see alcohol or weed I want to die. It’s super fun bc somehow I got blackout drunk and this kid on my floor decided to take advantage of that and I see him constantly and I want to die I want to die I hate it here. Other kid I’ve been hooking up (by choice this time) w is a total dick most of the time and still the closest thing I have to a friend hahaha Also I’ve had a fever for five days straight and now other ppl are sick and they’re all mad at me and yeah I’m having a great time at the fucking ohio state university. I desperately want to transfer but I’m here for free and I don’t know where I’d go I just want to leave I just wanna go but bc of this fever I can’t even get out of bed fuck fuck fuck
(likes boys but isn’t happy about it)
I let it go. It’s like swimming against the current. It exhausts you. After a while, whoever you are, you just have to let go, and the river brings you home.